Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Lost & Found

I've lost a step or two in my daily life. Quick witted and sharp has given way to stammering and sluggish.

I've lost the confidence a healthy kidney afforded me.

I've lost the will to give a damn sometimes.

I've lost many, many restful nights.

I've lost the fire in my belly that once burned brightly with ambition.

I've lost my taste for relationships. I can't take the look on a woman's face when she sees my access arm for the first time.

Conversely, and surprisingly, I've also managed to gain a few aspects to my life.

I've gained massive amounts of patience due to dealing with two to three hour highly boring Dialysis treatments.

I've gained an appreciation for the minor moments in life. Sunsets & a tall, cool glass of root beer are heavenly.

I've gained more experience in my writing from blogging about my experiences.

I've gained a tolerance for pain I never thought I would achieve in my lifetime.

I've gained an inner strength I never knew existed.

I've gained the ability to allow minor frustrations to fall off my back without another thought.

I've gained the knowledge that life should never be taken for granted.

Thank you and good night.